Today I take my last practice exam before I take the official gmat in 5 days.  Even though I know I need more time to study, practice and and get help I feel as if this is going to be the last time I take the GMAT.  I'm going to allow myself one more try by end of Summer in case I don't get the score I want, but now seems like the best time to get this test over with.

This has been a humbling experience.  Getting a good score is not easy for me, even though I've spent so many hours prating problems over the years.  It's humbling to apply and interview to business schools where they'll accept or reject me.  

I've been trying to work out and sleep more so that my mind can be as sharp as possible.  And just like the little muscle I've gained, I realize how the brain is a muscle that continually needs to be strengthened by giving myself mental challenges everyday like studying the GMAT or learning something new through a book or business article.  I feel like studying for the GMAT has helped jump start my brain to start thinking academically again and become more of a critical thinker.  I think that's what the GMAT is really testing.  They want to know if David Synn can keep up studies as he reenters a learning institution, all while managing a full time job and taking care of his family, who by the way is only comprised of two people at the moment. I know I can do this, and hope to get at least a 650 on the test.  I'm giving myself a number, and to prove I can do it I need to get a 650 on this practice test, where I expect to seem some repeat questions from when I took these practice exams last year. 

I end in a prayer to my Lord, Savior, Helper,  Creator, Master, and friend.  Lord, you know how weak I am and how little I can be.  God help me now and on Thursday to do well on this test. Only you can make my mind work and only you can make me click the right buttons.  I'm just part of your never ending love story, so please use me to overcome this obstacle, because I know I can't do this by myself.  May my efforts be pleasing to you as I put all my hope in you.  Thank you that no matter what happens, you love me the same and will one day come to take me to spend eternity with you.  How can I not be happy while I live out my time on earth, in preparation for eternal life with you.   Thank you for Joann, please always keep her by your side as you continue to form her path to you.  She a is lovely doe and I thank you for joining our paths on earth to follow you, even though our paths are a little bit different.  I know that this only makes sense to you, and I'm so glad how omniscient you are.